I doubt that He would have me lose heart, have shattered dreams, a worn-out body, and a hopeless spirit. I doubt that He would give me dreams and passions and abilities without chances to use them and live them out.
It is in the storm that we seek an anchor to keep us steady, a rock to cling to, a hope to believe in.
You have not been abandoned in your pain. And as contradictory as it sounds, there is joy to be found in the hurt.
We can reflect on His past goodness and faithfulness to see and know that He will be good and faithful for today and tomorrow.